The Sexy Apsara |The Return of the Feminine Arts |How to utilize your Cancer/Capricorn Axis | The Dangers of yin and yang Imbalances

The Goddess Parvati has been seeking me out. I have been concerning myself slightly about being a devotee of hers. My archetype has a natural communication with her that has been built over many lifetimes. She has shown me ever so gently the imbalances of the masculine and feminine energies and a way they mayContinue reading “The Sexy Apsara |The Return of the Feminine Arts |How to utilize your Cancer/Capricorn Axis | The Dangers of yin and yang Imbalances”

NEW! Monthly Tarot Meditations | October 2018 | Owning Your Value

As I was typing all the tarot cards in to October’s Daily Tarot I saw a story of high hopes and struggles with owning your goodness, as if it’s noble to to deny yourself of good. What message does that send to others within the universe? I know you don’t want to proclaim The bad.Continue reading “NEW! Monthly Tarot Meditations | October 2018 | Owning Your Value”

What does it mean to be Good Enough or Not Good Enough?

I’m in a romantic relationship. Relationships in general are hard for me whether its romantic or not. I can be very biting and wounded animal-ish. It brings out my shadows and demons. I just don’t feel good enough and I’m afraid that people feel that way about me. That’s a sensation that cuts and hurts.Continue reading “What does it mean to be Good Enough or Not Good Enough?”

The Wrong Reflection

If people aren’t like you What are they like? If  I’m not like you What am I like? people can  see me Can’t they? I should ask them “What am I like?” I need to hear flatteries Saying nothing about me is just as bad as Shame triggering poisonous attacks makes me try harder toContinue reading “The Wrong Reflection”

As My Life Changes there is Beginning to BE some Consistency – My Self-Understanding

Sometimes I’m ashamed of where I’m at because choosing to do the truth after I’ve lived a lie for so long is like turning the titanic around. There were so many shields of protection that I was using to keep the truth about my patterns hidden from me. As I desire to be as unentangledContinue reading “As My Life Changes there is Beginning to BE some Consistency – My Self-Understanding”

The Fairest of them All . . . Finally

“Hey, when she calls, right, tell her ass that I locked myself in my room, and I’m sitt’in in the corner rock’in  and I’m say’in,” makes retarded gesture and in the ghostly voice says, “whhhy . . . whhy . . . whhhhy.” The two sisters burst into laughter. “What the hell!,” Olivia can barelyContinue reading “The Fairest of them All . . . Finally”

What Blue Ivy Will Never Have to Feel aka Trauma Vortex

8 legs in the air frantically frailling Somebody abandoned the infant Like she was a roach, a turtle, or a centipede that always screams like that anyway Bombastic squeals that no one ever hears Only what’s behind my obvious poker face reveals, the Fire in the bottom of my back Rage and under – attackContinue reading “What Blue Ivy Will Never Have to Feel aka Trauma Vortex”

Ghost

What is this Ghost that haunts, taunts, and paralyzes Subtle Powerful Threatening A glance No presence Presence in only a certain way For the rest of your life It never leaves you Just like a mother shouldn’t Off Balance Not Well Enough No place in the World Ghost Vacancy where self – assured – nessContinue reading “Ghost”